Author Archives: tanyad40

Here we are, far too long since my last post and so very much has changed! If you had told me at the start of 2020 my life would end up this way, I would’ve laughed at you! 2020 was going to be MY year, but Covid had other ideas. Now we are almost 11Continue reading “Moving on…..”

This is going to be fairly vague as I’m not ready to be public about my current situation, but writing things down helps. 2021 was never going to be a great year given the whole pandemic thing. 2021 was hopefully going to be an ok year where I could start planning things again and havingContinue reading “Land of Confusion”

This past weekend I had a realization; my tendency towards perfection prevents me from trying things. When going through my breakdown at the start of last year, I was given a number of questionnaires to complete to see what exactly was going on with my brain. From that I found that a lot of theContinue reading “Perfectionism is the thief of joy”

Here we are, in October. Usually the excitement of the upcoming holiday season has me planning out Xmas decorations, starting to plan out gifts and generally looking forward to my most favourite time of the year. But this is 2020 and I feel none of the usual joy. I feel stuck in a permanent stateContinue reading “Usually “the most wonderful time of the year” but not in 2020″

You may have seen the title and wonder WTF I’m on about. I have noticed this is my “go to” phrase when my anxiety and/or depression has prevented me from doing something pretty essential, usually fairly simple, but to me seems too much so I just push it to the side, which usually has aContinue reading “I know. I suck. I’m sorry……”

I was never one of those people who thought social media impacted my mental health, until recently. There is enough uncertainty in my life right now, I don’t need conspiracy theories, people complaining how masks take away their rights, and the general negative tone many social media platforms seem to have taken in the lastContinue reading “Social media break”

So here we are. 6.5 months into 2020 and boy what a fucked up year this has been! I was so excited for this year; 2020 not only a new year but a new decade. I turned 40 in January and unlike the complete meltdown I had about turning 30, I was ready to embraceContinue reading “Sometimes I wonder…….”

I feel that using phrases such as “that’s depressing” or “I’m depressed by….” have become so overused that when someone is actually depressed our first reaction is they are very sad and that’s it. It is so much more than that and I didn’t fully appreciate just how much more was involved until I hadContinue reading “Depression: It’s so much more than sadness”